False Postive/ Work/ Anxiety

Hi,

I feel awful for even writing this but I have found out I’m pregnant and it is the worst possible timing ever. All I can see is hurdles and I feel so guilty for even feeling this way,

• I’ve been taking diazepam (last week) whilst on holiday for travel fear. I’ve read this can cause a false positive?
• I’ve also been taking period delay tablets , I’ve read this can cause birth defects? I took 4.
• my sister recently had a miscarriage and I feel absolutely terrible.
• I’ve given my notice in at a job I’ve worked in for 6 years and I am due to start my new job on the 12th July. I don’t know what to do, tell them? Not start? Try and retract my notice? I won’t even get SSP. Both jobs have 4.5 months full pay then ssp but I won’t qualify for that in my new role.
• i had a really bad birth with my son who is 18 months (pelvic floor damage) have really struggled mentally coming to terms with all the change.

i just feel like this is the worst timing and I’m so confused, worried and anxious. We haven’t told anyone yet so I thought asking peoples advice on here may help. I don’t even know where to start to try and sort anything out